So this is what it's like. Being responsible and having to do what you know is right - it sounds very nice and honorable and heart-warming.

It's not as easy as it sounds. And it just might hurt a little, especially if your heart is trying very hard to tell you something else.

"Just follow your heart," they say. Yeah sure, the short-term gratification looks very nice. But in the long run, it's just going to lead to further complications and inevitably, heartbreak.

I guess my heart and my head have been going on at each other over the whole thing for so long. I know what I should do, but doing it is the hard part. And it's really tempting to just throw caution to the wind and go for it.

But what would I gain from that? Not much. I'm probably better off keeping things as they are now. Why fix what is not broken?

C'mon David you can do this. It's not 2007 anymore.

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Indeed, there are many fish in the sea, but this time round, I think I'll be leaving the fishing equipment at home.

(Disclaimer: This is not an emo post.)

(Disclaimer 2, 11/03: To that someone who responded so quickly, I'm sorry if this sounded like it had something to do with you, because it has nothing to do with you at all. I do have a life going on outside college you know.)